Here comes the time of the year, when i thank everyone who've came into my life this year. Apparently this year wasn't the year for me, in fact, it seemed like it wasn't the year for everybody. But thankfully, i have these people in my life, who made me really really happy. :) of course i'm not close with all of them still, but i have to say, i'll never stop loving them.
Have you ever loved someone so much that you can't stop loving or leave them no matter how much they've hurt you and made you cry? Well, that's how much i love these people.
Viviane Kok,
I read your blog again, and i went through all the older post on your blog. I remembered how sweet we used to be to each other. You always tell people how much you love me, always telling people i'm your best friend, bragging about how perfectly amazing i am, and always taking pictures of me doing ugly faces without me knowing... Everything was, nice. We had promises, inside jokes, wishes, laughs, memories, nick names, everything. Of course, you were my best friend. I can just pour everything to you when i feel like, tell you secrets no one is supposed to know about me, bragging about what an amazing life i'm having without having to worry if i annoyed you with my brags. Well, guess time really can change things. Everything just came to an end, and i guess the both of us can do nothing but accept it. No matter what, thank you for being my best friend, listening to my rants and always caring about me before everything changed. I love you.
Fan Lip Hoong,
You, stupid guy who always calls me black and charcoal. Please accept the fact that i'm no longer that tan okay? You are always super mean to me but i know you always see me as one of your good friends, which is really really nice for me. Thank you for getting me souvenirs, that makes me know that you actually have a heart for me even though we don't really talk often anymore. You always make me a little happier when i need someone to cheer me up. You're just that kind of friend that knows what to do to make people happy. Thank you for being my friend and making me happy.
Chow Yik Cheng,
Brother! I always feel like you understand me, you know when i'm sad, you know when i'm lying, you know when i'm mad, everything! Which is really really nice because it's not something everyone can do. When i'm upset and i don't feel like telling anyone, you'll just come up to me on your own, and that warms my heart every single time. Though your advices are always stupid and lame, they never fail to cheer me up a little. Thank you for always being there when i need someone and giving concern to me when i need some. And also thank you for always taking my insults, hehe. Thank you for being my brother and making me smile. I promise to be the one who cheer people up next time, just like you.
Ho Min,
My small girl girl! Thank you for being there for my birthday, even though you know that your mum would be mad at you after that. And sorry for not making something big for you for your birthday. Throughout the year, thank you for loving me even though i have an attitude problem, and bringing laugthers for all of us. You're really really cute, don't cry so often okay? All little girls nave to grow up someday, but that doesn't mean i'll stop protecting you. Xx
Wong Kian Ying,
My dear. I remembered how close we used to be. Always hanging out together, getting in trouble together, turning into bitches together. Haha! I know we're not that close anymore, and i know that a lot of unhappy things happened around you this year, i'm sorry that i wasn't always by your side. I know that i still have a position inside your heart, even though we are not that close anymore. Thank you for the birthday card, i really appreciate it. And even though i'm closer with someone else now, doesn't me i've forgotten you, forgotten us. I never did. I love you my dear, stay strong like how you used to be.
Joanne Tee,
My baby! I have no idea why i like you so much, and i have no idea why are you the closest with me in Aces. I just look forward in seeing in you practice all the time, and i really like you. Thank you for being there to listen to my feelings, even when you were studying or about to study at the moment, and even if my rants are a lil childish. Thank you for being there and letting me know you'll me there. I love you!
Dickson Tan,
Dreamy dreamy Dickson! Although we only started to really talk lately, but i have to say, you're one of the people i trust now. And also, thank you for giving me a part of your trust, when you can hardly trust anyone anymore. Thank you for cheering me up sometimes, and being there to listen, i hope you don't find me annoying with all those complains. Hehe. And also thank you for your chocolates, i was actually joking but i never thought that you'd buy for me, it made me really, really happy though. I know how you hardly trust people now after what you've been through, but now that i have your trust, i will appreciate it, and i hope i won't let you down someday. You're so dodol it's so funny sometimes.
Adrian Lee,
Fishy! I don't know how we got close either but i'm happy that you trust me. Though you've made me really mad and upset and hated you, but i'm still treating you like my brother. You're one heck of an emotional guy. And it's really funny sometimes to see you going upset about little things. It just makes me happy when i can cheer you up when you're down, cause that's when i know that my jokes are actually funny. Haha! Whether you want it or not, i'll still treat you like my brother, you crying fish. And thank you for trusting me!
Lee Chee Choon,
I really like talking to you. That night when i couldn't find anyone else to talk to, i thought of you. And surprisingly, you listened, in a very very nice way. I never thought that someone like you, who always joke around and act all funny can be this serious and quiet when someone is actually telling you their feelings. That night when i felt all lost and miserable, you made me feel like i have someone i can talk to, and cheered me up. And that's when i started to like talking to you. Thank you for that day, and cheering me up with your stupid jokes sometimes when i need something to turn my frown upside down.
Eng Shi Yi,
Though we're not that close anymore, i still miss you at times. And i have never once, regretted being by your side when everyone didn't. You were one of my closest friend, and i'm sorry if i did something that changed that. I'll never forget you, cause i can hardly forget anyone, and you're one of the people who were really close to me. I know you go through some tough times in your life sometimes, when you feel like you have no one, when you feel like you have nothing, when you feel like nothing... remember, you'll always mean something to me. I'll be here, whenever you need me. :)
Teh Wei Ching,
My little nephew. I'll never forget how close we were, and how you were always there when i needed you. That little boy that annoys me yet makes me smile at the same time every time i go online on Facebook. That little boy i'd like to take care of as if you were my actual nephew. Although everything is upside down now, I didn't forget you, i never did. Sometimes when i'm upset and go all emotional on Twitter, i will still wish to see that lil Facebook chatbox pop up with you name on it, asking me : "hey auntie, what's wrong again?" like how it used to be. I missed it, i missed you. Sorry for making things twist and turn, and making you one of the saddest person for some period. Thank you for making me smile for uncountable times, thank you for loving and taking care of me in every way you can last time. Thank you for everything. I love you.
Dickson Kong,
Coach D! I can't never stop telling people you're my favourite coach and i love you. You always believed in me, even when i get all scared and tell you i can't do it. You make me feel like you love me more than the others, and you believe in me, which gives me the spirit to go on and archive something. Thank you for always teaching me ways to perfect my stunt and believing in me, even when i can't believe in myself. Everything just seems possible when you're there. I love you coach! :)
Ruben Hoo,
My brother. Seeing my Facebook history reminds me how close we used to be.You used to find me very often, I can tell you everything, and you can tell me everything. We were like real brothers, sharing feelings and secrets every night. I'm pretty sorry to hear that I've changed a lot from you. Of course i notice things changed to, we don't talk that often anymore, and i'm not that brother you'd find whenever you need someone anymore. I'm sorry that i'm not that person who gives you advice and talk all nicely and sweetly to you anymore. I'm sorry you can't rely on me anymore. But anyhow, you will always be my brother.
Eugene Teng Kien Win,
Giant Eugene, the 21 year-old i know who gets along so well with us teenagers. Haha. I believe my maturity is considered childish for you, and i thank you for still listening when i tell you stupid things and give stupid complains. Thank you for giving me your patience even when i get all mad and rude when i talk sometimes. And i'm happy to know that i can trust you, and you can trust me. Thank you for basing me even though i always freak out and fail a stunt you're trying to archive. You're a really good friend, and super tall.
Suet Yee Xiiao Yee,
My baby Yeeyee! I love how much you love me, and how much you care for me. Even though we don't see each other often and i'm 2 years older than you, you still make me feel welcomed every time i appear unexpectedly. Thank you for always asking if i'm okay whenever you see me being unstable, reminding me that i have Him and you'll be by my side whenever i need someone. Knowing that you care a lot for me just warms my heart. I love and miss you too Suet Yee.
Chin Pooi Kee,
Pooi Kee, Pooi Kee, the name that will automatically pop up in my mind whenever i need someone. Thank you for taking care of me all the time, giving me good advice and not give up on me. I'm sorry i don't pick up your calls sometimes and disappoint you, but i need you to know that i really, really love you. I know you'll never give up on me, and so, i won't give up on myself either. Thank you for leading me all along this journey, thank you for everything.
Lee Zheng Yann,
My gorgor! I'm not sure if i'll ever see you again but i'm really sure that i will miss you. Thank you for letting me insult you all the time, and making you do things for me. We always have things to talk about, even though you're one year older than me. We just get along like that and it's comfortable talking to you. Thank you for accompanying me sometimes in school, too. I'll miss you for sure, take care!
Wong Qi Le,
My sifu! Thank you for always helping me out and making me improve even when i didn't ask. And thank you for always spotting me during tumbling sessions. You're a really strong cheerleader and i look up to your spirit. Thank you for always helping me and making me a better cheerleader. :)
Lim Chee Chao,
Chao gor. It's been 2 years since you graduated, we don't see each other of talk often but you're still treating me like a baby sister of yours. it's magical how every time when i feel like i have nothing and no one i can rely on, you'll just come popping up on my Whatsapp notification asking me why am sad, every.single.time. That just makes me feel a lot better after seeing you still caring about me even though i treat you like shit sometimes (like now). Thank you for always taking care of me even after so long, and letting me use foul language on you when i'm mad. Thank you for not forgetting me. Glad i met you. :')
Cyc23s,
The best friends-family i've ever had, i swear! I thank God for bringing me to all of you, it's a blessing. Knowing all of you was one of the best part of my life. I can just be myself around all of you, without worrying if someone will think that i'm annoying, judge me, or talk behind my back. Because i know that none of you will, and i love all of you will my heart. Thank you for treating me like family and making me feel welcomed even though i don't come often, and giving me concerns every once in a while. I love you, all of you!
Chea Jin Win,
My punching bag! Thank you for being my punching bag all the time. Though it's really not fair to you. And thank you for always fetching me around when there's practice. Although i really hate talking to you sometimes, because all you do is tell me : "aiyo don't care la, non of my business, lol zadao" etc etc lame responds that make me feel like ending the conversation, you're still the person i trust the most among all the people i know. Thank you for everything you've done for me :) but please, do one more thing for me, stop using bad words in every sentence you make. hehe.
Low Peak Sew,
Peak peak, though we're not that close anymore, but i still love you like how i do since the first day i met you. Well of course, more than that. I know you've been through a lot this year, and i know that you're that strong little girl who likes to keep things in your heart instead of sharing it. But just so you know, i'll always be here when you need someone to talk to. I will be by your side, whenever you need me, i promise. You got me, just as long as you need me. Thank you for being by my side when i need a lift sometimes. Thank you for everything you've done for me. I love you, i really really do. :) and i hope you'll be happy again, like, really really happy, from the bottom of your heart, instead of faking a smile to please and make people smile all the time. I'm not a superhero, neither are you. When you want to fall, just do, i'm always ready to catch you.
You don't always have to be strong, you know?
Last but not least, of course...
Ivy Then Tze Shieng,
As everyone knows, i'm the closest with you. We just won't run out of things to talk about. Although we fight sometimes and i get all unreasonable and bossy sometimes, i thank you for tolerating and never having the thought of leaving my side. I know i have this attitude, and i treat or talk to you in a way you don't like sometimes, you'd just get over it after a second or few, because i know you love me. And just so you know, i love you as much too. There's one point of love where you can't possibly leave that person no matter what they do, or how much they make you hate them, or how much they've hurt you, you just won't stop loving them, and that, is how much i love you. Thank you for being by my side the whole year, sharing secrets with me, listening to my complains, lending me your shoulder when i cry, telling me what's wrong and what's right, giving me advices to make me a better person, helping me out without me knowing, everything.
I know you're always upset and you always have a lot of emotional thoughts in mind, but i want you to know,
i'll always be here when you need a shoulder to cry on. Then, now, and forever.
Thank you for being my best friend, thank you for everything you've done for me. I love you.
Bitch. :p
Till then.
Merry Christmas,
i've got my present for the year already,
i love you, all of you.
